Friday, April 27, 2012

Overwhelmed

I'm feeling overwhelmed.  After an incredible massage last night, my body feels sore and tired.  She worked out a lot of the tension I was feeling in my back, but also shined a bright light on the parts of my body that need more attention.  For me, that's my feet.  When I was younger I had juvenile rheumatoid arthritis.  I know I'm very lucky to have outgrown this disease, and subtle reminders still linger in my body.  My arches are collapsing, my toes are spreading and I'm bearing weight in the wrong places.  This created some knee problems, inflamation, pain and ultimately I had to get my knee drained.  This issue hasn't been at the forefront of my mind lately because I haven't been experiencing pain.  But the truth is that if I'm going to walk my talk and prevent future health problems, I need to be proactive now about supporting my feet and adjusting the way I walk.  I know that it's possible, and I know that I can do it, but facing these issues again makes me feel really tired and overwhelmed.  So here is my plan.

I can't do everything all at once, but I can do one thing. 

Today my one thing is awareness.  As I walk around and feel sore, I'm going to pay attention to my feet.  That's it.  Remembering and practicing good posture with a focus on my feet is the step I am able to take today.  Down the road I will make an appointment with the podiatrist, get new orthodics and start taking some joint-support supplements.  I will also wear high heels less and practice leg strengtheners that don't require my feet (swimming, yoga, weight lifting machines).  Finally, and probably most importantly, I will have faith.  Faith in my body's natural ability to heal itself.  My body had done it before (remember that thyroid issue?) and it will do it again.  Meditation, faith, rest and self-love are my best remedies.  Today I ask the Universe to remind me again that I have all that I need and that my healing is on the way.  Thank you, Universe!

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